These days I find it so hard to tell someone I love them because everyone I ever told I loved never believed me. I realized that telling someone you love them isn’t really important. What’s important is loving them through my actions. If you want to know I love you just look how I act around you. I stopped looking for love because I discovered that I have love. I don’t chase after people because I now know that whoever has a love like mine will not run away from my love. There are so many people I will never tell I love but I love them through my actions anyway. The reason people suffer heartbreaks is because they love with expectations. If you love someone don’t force them to love you back. People could be loving you but you might never know because of how you expect love to look like.
You can’t love anyone if you don’t love yourself. At times you may think you love someone when in fact it’s your selfish desires controlling you. True love is unconditional. It doesn’t expect benefits. You can act like you don’t know but I still love you. You can get married to somebody else but I still love you. I won’t beg you to love me back. I won’t beg you to accept me. To avoid breaking my heart I will let you go and I will keep loving you until the end of time. Maybe I don’t have the traits you want but I have love for you. I offer love to people who never take it so it remains with me. So many don’t want love. They want things. People have set conditions. They put those conditions first and then love comes last.
If love is the only thing you can offer you might never get anyone to love you back. Do you call someone always and wonder why they never call? Do you do all you can to keep a relationship going but the other person does nothing at all? Do you feel like you’re the only one giving and getting nothing in return? When you love someone you expect them to love you back. That’s how conditional it is.
When you buy someone a gift or do something special for them you expect them to return the favor. Conditional love leads you to feeling unloved and unappreciated. Why don’t you love yourself first? That way you will know that sometimes people might never see you the way you want them to because maybe they don’t even love themselves. Ever wondered why someone would reject someone who’s offering them true love while throwing themselves to someone who treats them like trash? It may be because those people lack self worth. There’s a kind of people who enjoy being harassed and treated like they are nothing. There’s a species of humans who call bitter, sweet and sweet, bitter. Some human beings have decided that when something is too good then it isn’t true. They have their reasons of course. Maybe they once trusted someone who looked so real then turned out to be exactly the opposite.
Are you like me. Do you find yourself alone because of staying true? Tell me all about it in the comments section.
Jesse Came Athi.